24-year old Pax Tate is an asshole.
He’s a tattooed, rock-hard bad-boy with a bad attitude to match.
But he’s got his reasons.
His mother died when Pax was seven, leaving a hole in his heart filled with guilt although he doesn’t understand why. What he does know is that he and his dad are left alone and with more issues than they can count.
As Pax grew up, he tried to be the kid his father always wanted; the perfect golden boy, but it didn’t work. His dad couldn’t overcome his grief long enough to notice and Pax couldn’t keep up the impossible perfect façade.
So he slipped far, far from it.
Now, he uses drugs and women to cope with the ugliness, the black void that he doesn’t want to deal with. If he pretends that the emptiness isn’t there, then it isn’t, right?
And it’s never more apparent than when he meets Mila.
Sweet, beautiful Mila Hill is the fresh air to his hardened frown, the beauty to his ugly heart. He doesn’t know how to not hurt her, but he quickly realizes that he’s got to figure it out because he needs her to breathe.
When memories of his mother’s death resurface from where he’s repressed them for so long, Mila is there to catch him when the guilt starts making sense. Mila is the one…the one who can save him from his broken troubled heart; from his issues, from the emptiness.
But only if he can stop being an asshole long enough to allow it.
He knows that. And he’s working on it.
But is that enough to make her stay?
**Warning -Contains sex and violence**
About The Author
Courtney Cole is a novelist who would eat mythology for breakfast if she could. She has a degree in Business, but has since discovered that corporate America is not nearly as fun to live in as fictional worlds. She loves chocolate and roller coasters and hates waiting and rude people.
Courtney lives in quiet suburbia, close to Lake Michigan, with her real-life Prince Charming, her ornery kids (there is a small chance that they get their orneriness from their mother) and a small domestic zoo.
Author Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/#!/courtneycolewrites
Novel Goodreads: http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/17032328-if-you-stay
Author Goodreads: http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/3112212.Courtney_Cole
My Mini Review
Wow, this was really a great story! It just had the mix of hard conflict, the kind that you just don't know that you will ever get through, and then there's the intense romance that was really hot. Some of the scenes, including, I think it's Pax and Mila's second date, and well the Author wrote a fun and intriguing scene, that includes paint...Well that and other scenes, where you can just feel that these two characters have a strong bond, a connection that might definitely last, is written well here.
But, there is the conflict side, and Mila has had some rough bumps, including the death of her parents, but she finally looks into something in their marriage, that she finally puts to rest. Pax has it rough though, and I think the Author, again, wrote his past, his current situation that again includes his past, just really well. The beginning, well the opening of the book, was wow, what a beginning to a story! But, before he and Mila get together, you see Pax's character in his most rawest form, until Mila opens him to a better way of life, and just their story together, was awesome to read, and I think so worth it! This is one I Recommend! :)
My Rating: 4.5/5
I Say a Mild R-Rating! I say this is for Readers 17+
(Some Mature Language & Sexual Content)